Saturday, April 17, 2010

Of Headaches and High School

I went out Friday night to celebrate Brandon Hunters Birthday with him. Of course, I was at the bar, alone, for an hour! But that's alright I still had a good time, and though Brandon and I weren't really friendly in high school, I'm glad we can put everything aside and be adults! Besides, it's always nice to see people from High School. And it was a good time. We talked and drank, and hung out. I guess we're going to do that more often, hang out that is. Brandon's a cool dude after all!

So I seem to be getting a lot of Adware crap on my computer. This one (I've had two!) wants to take me to Porno.com and Adult.com. Don't go. Adware wouldn't be such an issue it if wasn't pop up after pop up. Any suggestions on how I fix it? Free Adware blocker! Give it to me. I hate pop ups! I'll just stick it down in the far right corner for now. I think that'll work. Seems to be so far! Now if I can just stop the porn sites from coming up life will be good.

My Aunt Brooke fixed the wireless. Too bad I have a P.O.S. computer that won't pick up a wireless signal. I seriously need a new one.

...I had a reason for writing but I forgot why. It's taken me several days to write this. I know, I suck! But at least I'm writing now. Right? Meh. Hopefully it won't take me as long next time and I'll have something more to say, or something decent to say.

Oh! Heath and I are going to Jesus Christ Superstar on Thursday. I'm really super excited! Ted Neeley is seriously one of my favorite actors/singers ever, also JCSS is my favorite Musical of all time. I'm super excited to see it live! It's going to be amazing. I'll tell you about it on Friday.

Anyway, before I start to get all emo on you, I best go. Also, it's bed time! Cross your fingers that my love life starts getting easier to figure out okay? Thanks.

Ciao.
Mandy

Friday, April 16, 2010

Trending Setting

I feel like I've set a trend! I'm looking at my Facebook page and several of my friends have started blogs, and even more are writing little bloggy notes. How exciting. It feels nice to write and get things off your chest, I know! And it's way easier to type! I'm much happier in front of a computer than a notebook I find. Sad I know, but this is why I need one of those little notebook computers. Than I can blog from anywhere! Won't that just be thrilling! I know I'm excited about it! It'll be pretty sweet. Also I'm dying for a new laptop. Mines a piece of crap. A serious piece of crap!

Anyway, I went to Cheyenne with Heath last night to watch Crash of the Titans. Which was pretty much epic. They did such an amazing job with it. It's not a remake, but a reboot, which really isn't the worst thing ever. It was very very fun to watch. And then we stayed for the 10:00 PM showing of Kick Ass, which kicked some freaking ass! That movie was awesome but not kid friendly at all. Poor Adrian! I really enjoyed both of the movies, and an evening with Heath. A girl couldn't ask for a better friend!

We talked about (as we did when we went to Fort Collins) relationships and shoes. And you know, as wrong for me as Flip Flop (Oooh you know, I have to give nick-names!) is I am happy. Or mostly happy, I mean I'm terrified that he's going to hurt me, as I usually am when something is too good to be true. I mean, how many times have I started to let myself get even slightly emotionally attached to a guy and then he turns around and starts seeing someone else. When it's not serious it's not a big deal, but when I really dig someone, as much as I'm digging Flip Flop, I get super self concious. I don't like to be hurt, and when I don't have much to escape to, I try to keep myself from getting hurt. I suppose I should talk to him about this. If I ever see him!

You want to avoid any hasty decisions today, Libra, as these could have long lasting effects on your romantic affairs. If you are attached, you and your partner may be having some problems finding a common ground on a relationship issue. Your conscience may be plaguing you on this one, and in this case you are best to give in to their needs, and wait for your turn down the road. Single? Caution is advised for you today as well, you don't want to jump into anything too soon or make any big decisions today. You may be presented with an opportunity that sounds too good to be true, and you know what that usually means, don't you?

That's what my "Love Horoscope" on Facebook said today. I seriously hate those things. They are creepy! But it really does help. I feel like I'm in that exact situation and I was about ready to do something really stupid. Maybe I'll hold back, wait for a bit, see how the cards fall.

Until then! Enjoy this video and fall in love with this band. Thanks to a certain someone I have this song stuck in my head.




Ciao.
Mandy

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Logic Backwards My


I made my schedule for the month of March. It is going to be hell. I'm working part time at the Washakie desk, so four days, and six hours a day at the desk! After a long day with the babies. 4pm-10pm Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday and Sunday. Disgusting! I guess only Tuesday and Thursday will suck, but otherwise I'll be fine. I'm not staying in the dorms yet. That'll be in June, when I start working full time at Downey. Which actually won't be that bad, I'll be off at what? Like Four? I think it was four. Maybe it was Six. I'm not sure, I just know I'm working the Downey desk, everyday until is closes, while everyone is in their summer school classes. Everyday, except the weeks I'm at camp!

So Johnny is graduating in like two weeks!! I'm really excited to head up that way, but I'm going with the Grandma, who still doesn't know I have a tattoo. I'm going to have to be extra diligent on the car ride up there. Because if she finds out about it she will kill me! And that would be the worst thing ever! I would probably cry. I would definately cry!! Any, I'll be going to Spokane, Washington on that Friday (Or heading up there) and won't be home until Monday or so. That'll be awesome. I can't believe Johnny is already done with school and I haven't even started. But! He's still got grad school here in Laramie. That'll be pretty much amazing! I can't wait for him to live here!! It's going to be the most fun ever! Seriously. Johnny is like my best friend, I don't even think of him as my cousin, but another brother.

Anyway, so I've got that at the beginning of the Month, and at the end of the Month is Staff retreat in Guernsey. Hopefully I can get up there! I want to go very very badly! It'd be amazing if I was able to! A whole weekend with the people I love most (except you know, my blood relatives). I'm really looking forward to that!

Alright, what to write about...I told you I'm not good at this blogging thing. Half the time my entries won't even have a point to them, it'll just be me writing crap, which I'm best at! Also, misspelling everything because Spell Check has forgotten to work!

Let's see. What else can I tell you about? Oh! I've gotten some art work done for me lately. I'm always getting work done for me! Anyway, it's the image I've got up there. Scary ass Mofo right? Yeah. I wish I could draw like that. Unfortunately I can't claim that as my own. Just my idea. I'd like to do something with it, but i'm not sure what yet. Maybe write a story. That'd be fun. It'd get my creative juices flowing more.

Creative juices sounds naughty!!

My aunt has been staying with us this week, and through next week too. She's looking for a job up here. That'll be weird to have her living here in Laramie, but also neat. I'm still on the edge about how I feel about that. Could be awesome, could be like having another Mom hanging around! Ha!

Anyway, I'm gonna stop typing and go do something else.

Ciao.
Mandy

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

I often Try to Blog

Honestly, this is not something I do very often. I don't write in journals (Even though I have about half a million of them.) So I can't say if this whole blogging idea is going to last very long. I'll probably keep it up for a few weeks (if I don't lose interest in a few days) and then let it drop on the way-side. I often do that with this sort of thing. Like that silly Horror Movie Review blog. I dunno, I just lost interest. Besides, I'd rather watch movies with people than watch them alone to review them. That's just sad, and goes to show how pitiful my life is.

I've been trying to change my life. Trying to change how I live, who I interact with and what I do. It's not working very well. I'm still spending most of my time sitting at home with the fam (Or in my room as in most cases). I have, however started playing Poker on Tuesdays. It's a nice get-away, and something to help Wednesday come faster. I'm not bad at poker, considering I learned how to play by watching Celebrity Poker Showdown. Epic show. Anyway, so I've been playing and doing fairly well. I'm glad I can play the game, it'd be silly to play and suck at it! Plus, guys don't seem to expect girls to be able to play Poker. Good thing I can kick their asses right?

Okay, so I've had something sitting pretty heavily on me lately. I'm one of those girls that's got a ton of self-confidence. I know I'm attractive and that guys like me, but I'm always always always afraid to even try to start anything with the male gender. I don't know how to explain it. I guess, when I find myself really really like a guy, I start feeling scared that he doesn't like me as much as I like him, and that he's just going to find a different girl that strikes his fancy all the more. And then I start getting afraid that I'll talk to him too much, or too little or want to spend too much time with him...or too little. And then I start pushing him away so I won't get hurt. And it sucks. Honestly makes me want to cry. I haven't even considered actually being in a relationship with anyone since, well Brett, and that was like what? Three years ago? Give or take. I dunno. I'm afriad that's gonna happen again. I'm starting to have these doubts.

Maybe I'm just jealous. That's probably it. I'm a stupid jealous bitch. Ugh! I am pretty seriously tired of feeling this way. I need some reassurance.

Anyway! I dug out most of my notebooks that I currently have at my house. There's not many of them, and most of them don't have much in them. A lot of crap. I'm excited to get the rest of my crap from my old place. That way, I'll be able to go through every single one of my notebooks. I do have a huge container with some. At least twenty notebooks, if not more! Maybe that'll inspire me to write. If not, at least I'll have a lot of paper. And I'll be distracted for a little while. I need to be distracted from my thoughts.

I don't want to keep holding people at arms length.

Ciao.
Mandy